fear

What it feels like… to move forward fearlessly.

By Cassie Kennedy.

I have near been one to be easily scared.

I’m impulsive by nature and when it comes to the big decisions in life, I tend to go with my gut, rushing headlong into one adventure before I am prompted into the next one.

So, when I started writing four years ago I shouldn’t have been surprised I got the same excited, tingly feeling.

It all started with a dream… Over five consecutive nights, I had the same dream over and over again.

I had a dream about twins. That were born, separated and how they find each other again.

The dream was so persistent that I got curious and started to wonder what their story was. I called the twins Amber and Aiden and wondered how they found each other.

Day by day, week by week, I wrote a one chapter, then another and another until I finished the first book; The Feathered Roots, then the second; Scatter of Kin then the third; The Binding Veil until that day when The Kinship Chronicles® was finally finished.

I am proud of my baby, my creative baby that had been born within my instinctive, impulsive and impossibly distracted mind. I loved writing the story, as it flirted and teased me with the possibility of what could happen next.

And when I wrote the last sentence of the book, the sentence I imagined a year before I finally wrote it down, I cried because I did it.

A year of my life, time I would never get back, had passed and in that moment of pride and satisfaction – I didn’t regret one single second.

Then came the personal dilemma, should I let my baby out into the world, exposed and vulnerable where I couldn’t protect it?

Or should I keep it to myself, on the metaphorical shelf with my sole loving, parental glance?

For the first time in my life, despite my impulsive nature, I am nervous.

But the life of creativity is not meant to be lived in fear. The very instinct that had encouraged me to write in the first place had been one of courage and fortitude. My imagination had been allowed to run free, without limitations or borders, just like the wild horse within you that bucks and breaks for freedom and that spirit within you should be allowed to run free.

So, I’m admitting I’m nervous but I am still doing it anyway. Because to live in fear is not to live at all and I would rather take my chances, trust in my story and see where my sails take me.

It’s going to a lot of fun. Because, when you get the jittery nerves dancing in your stomach it is sometimes nature’s way of telling you that what is come is so exciting that the feelings are spilling over into the now and teasing you with what is to come.

So, if I could leave you with one parting wish, I would like it to be this; live your life fearlessly, trust your story, whatever it may be and live the life you imagined.

I am.

Cassie Kennedy
Cassie Kennedy is an Author, blogger and storyteller. Her debut novel The Kinship Chronicles® is available now to pre-order. www.cassiekennedy.com